Today was my last day of school in Subang Utama. Leaving school for another school is very hurtful, especially when you are already in a very serious love with someone. I had this tremendous crush on him since last year. I entered Subang Utama and the first guy I fell for was him, Abdul Rahman. Rahman is a very simple person. Actually, I’ve known him since I was in primary as we were in the same school. I left primary and went to kuantan because my parents decided to stay there. So, there I went with no thoughts on anyone. I wasn’t in love with anyone, so there weren’t very much frustrations. IN kuantan, I had this feeling too! But it wasn’t as big as this. To me, Rahman is born to be special to everyone. He is just plain sweet to the teachers and friends. However, he isn’t very sweet to girls. He is a smart student and at the same time, very playful and should I say cheeky? To my surprise, all of his best friends are my friends. One of them is Zharif. To be frank, I didn’t actually bump into Zharif and became friends with him. I actually seek for Rahman’s friends and make them my friends. By doing that, I can actually get to know him, without actually knowing him. Zharif told me everything I should know about Rahman. He sat next to Rahman for 3 years! So, he must know a lot about Rahman. “Rahman is just plain dumb and he doesn’t bother bout girls.”, said Zharif. And I went ,” yeah, whatever.”! In coincidence, I was in the same class as Zharif, so we had so many times together talking about Rahman. Meanwhile, Zharif is actually having a flirtatious look on the girl who sat next to me, Ruwaydah. So, I kind of helping him to get myself helped. Sadly, both of us have the same ending, which is SAD. One day, Zharif and I were talking bout MRSM, which is a full-supported Science boarding school. He applied for it too! And again, we were placed in the same MRSM. Knowing that we will be leaving Subang Utama, we decided to have our love life ended as we had quite a bad luck in it. I told Zharif to tell Ruwaydah his feelings, he did and Ruwaydah actually needed more time to get to know Zharif better. Well, Zharif’s ending wasn’t as horrible as mine. One very fine day, one of my classmates, Syazrin burst the whole thing about Rahman. After knowing my feelings to him, Rahman laughed and didn’t actually have any feelings towards the evil and embarrassing news. I was there too, when that disastrous Syazrin tells the whole drama bout me and how pathetic I was in class because all I could think of was Rahman. So folks, tell me, who in the world would not be mad with that? So, as Syazrin get into the class, I attacked him but he didn’t show any remorse. In the end, I was the one who felt bad for being mad at him. Everyone just ignored him for once. But it didn’t last long; we then had a pathetic pity on him and just let him join the crowd again. The days go by and I start to feel the love, coming stronger from my teachers and friends. I was so excited when the day came. My last day of school. The day started out very emotional. Everyone was so surprised when I told them that it was my last day. On that day, I also got wish came true. Matin, my senior crush headed the Yassin recital. I was forced to talk to Rahman. I didn’t want to and they said that I was going to regret it my whole life. I didn’t care, I said. Actually, I was influenced by my sister who strictly gave her points why I shouldn’t talk to Rahman. She made sense though. One day, I might be seeing him again. Who knows? So, after sending Aimie back to her class, I bump into him again. I felt like my tears coming down but I just keep myself strong. At the same time, my friends wanted me to give my phone to them so that I can later have Rahman’s pic. The atmosphere was rather heart-stoppingly sad. I saw Rahman laughing with his friends. My final decision was NOT talking to him. I just let my heart sway. I hugged Aimie. She cried and still had time to ask me to talk to Rahman. Aimie didn’t want to let me go while I felt like running away from there cuz I just couldn’t bear seeing Rahman laughing and having fun. It looked as if he was happy to see me going. As I was on my way back to class, he came on my way. I was delighted as I thought he wanted to say goodbye or something sweet. Well, DREAM ON, Haselyn. After the bell rang, everyone hugged me, even the ones who I never spoke to. I was so happy being sad. As usual, I was hoping to see Rahman on my way back as it was going to be my last chance to see him. He wasn’t there and I entered my dad’s car and pretend as if I was happy as for at last the whole bullshit has come to the end. However, deep in my heart I cried out loud………. |
